This movie has a few amazing lines that got me thinking the other night. I feel like I'm always waiting. I'm waiting to move to Chicago. I'm waiting to break the single spell. I'm waiting for laundry to be done. I'm waiting for another great thing to happen.
I can't help but think/feel/understand/realize that God didn't intend things to be this way. He intended us to take in every moment. As I was driving to return a guitar to a friend tonight (mine was broken. :(... ) I was taking everything in. The countless couples walking around the lake. The children riding their bikes. The baseball players standing in the field and leaning against fence posts. Where one story ends, another begins.
God allowed and blessed me so much to live here on the Central Coast. I can't help but breathe in at times like this. The sun is setting. My head is vaguely hurting from a day of Ultimate Frisbee in the sun. I will miss everything here, but that doesn't mean I miss it now. I'm still here, for crying out loud.
Yesterday, I went to San Luis with my mom and my sister and I found myself so tired. I was just sitting there at Splash Cafe *plug.* and my mom and sister both asked me if I was okay. Instead of my usual crazy and wierd self I was just sitting there with my arms crossed on the table, slumping into them. I was emotionally exhausted from this week. What a week it was!
Oh, the beauty of my Lover is that he allows me to get it all in. Even when I'm in this stage of exhaust and melancholy, he still takes me into his arms and we watch the sunset together. He still gives me just enough gas in my car to make it around the lake so I can fall in love again. He is to me, at this moment, the lover of my soul. I want to simply come home to Him, unwind with him and relax in that.
Go read Psalm 37:3-5. It is my heart. It is His truth. May it give you what you need right now. I'm off to live.
Grace and Peace.
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